Been doing that thing where I listen to way too much music and zone out more than usual.
That thing I do where i completely lose myself in a book to the point where reality is what appears as a break.
More sleeping than usual, more staying in bed even if it’s just lying around and not getting work done.
Taking road trips just for the heck of it and trying to accomplish the task of reading along with not wanting to miss out on the view.
Just sitting by the window when it starts raining and doing nothing but listening to the sound of rain.
A little more contemplating and less speaking.
August, you’ve been one taking-it-easy on the self kinda month so far.
Has it ever felt like you have a reached a point where just thinking about anxiety makes you really anxious?
Like me, do you think about it all the time too? About what it would be like to be the person who is always confident and not anxious all the time?.
What it would be like to be someone who is not always afraid of doing things without the fear of being heavily judged/criticized?.
What it would be like to not let your panic attacks and anxiety get the best of you?.
What it would be like to not always doubt yourself and believe that voice inside which gets reduced to a whisper every time your mind starts panicking?
It is like there are these bars around you and even though they are very much breakable, you just freeze and feel like you can’t. That you are not strong enough. Anxiety is just exhausting to the point that it drains you of all your positivity. It is this inner battle you are fighting every single day that nobody is aware of. There are days when you want to make an effort and fight it but there are also those days when you just feel lost even before trying.
Anxiety either gets the best of you and makes you feel like a loser or you show your best self to anxiety and win one battle at a time. On the days when you feel like it is your day to win, weaken the power of anxiety and strengthen your soul by believing in yourself. Anxiety is just something you experience but it is not who you are. It is not what you are made of.
And then one day you won’t have to imagine a life without anxiety, You would be living it.